Finally..
Thursday, October 19, 2006

I guess I can finally take a little breather. But only for awhile.

The event planning was fine, on my side. Thanks for those who have faith in me. Though I am a little disappointed at some people who seem to be taking things very lightly. Ya, I know the event's on the 11th and 19th November but nothing much has been done.

Some people even have the cheek to say that I have not been doing my job? And I am not doing my best? And aku tak ikhlas?

Please la. Siapa yang tak ikhlas ni sekarang? The event's like in 3weeks time. But let's be more realistic, it's going to be in 2 weeks time, minus Hari Raya week. And we've yet to settle alot of things.

Yes, I said the committee cock-up. Didn't you say the same thing too last time? I know pretty well why you suddenly decided to think that the committee is not cock-up. Dah sangkut pe.

You said I scold them for no reason for whatever. Please la. I remember perfectly that whenever I "scold" (though in my personal point of view, it's not scolding, it's just menegur in a harsh manner) them, it's because they don't do their job. I don't "scold" those who did their job.

And I don't think you are in the position to claim that I am doing my job, I am not doing my best and I do things tak ikhlas. How about you? Your reply said something like, "Abih tu kita? Kita buat keje dapat apa?". Now, look into the dictionary to define the word volunteer.

You are in no position to say those things to me. The only people whom I think are in the position to say those things are my supervisors and my bosses. But you're neither.

Though you may be more senior than me, in terms of age and in terms of voluntary experience, but I think I know more than you.

I know you well enough. I know you are getting your own people in the committee to go against me. You know what? I don't give a fucking care. You know why? Because I know there are those in the committee who thinks perfectly opposite of you. They know why I am like that during the meetings. They know what I am trying to do. You want to know who? I think you perfectly know who they are. I don't have to name names.

You want me to complain. Damn it la. I can complain all I want, if I choose to. I can go around the office and tell everybody how things are going now in the committee. You can't expect me to keep everything to myself kan. I've got a supervisor. And she's my advisor. She has the right to know. I need an outlet to vent my frustrations.

If I were to be childish, I would have blogged about these things instead. And let everybody read it. Eventually, they will know who I am talking about.

So stop acting like you are all mature and stuff. Stop acting like you are all serious and stuff. Stop thinking you know so many things. Because between me and you, I think you are none of the above.

I don't care if you are going to read this blog. I don't care if anybody's going to read this blog and tell you. My blog's not password protected anymore. And no, you can't charge me for defamation. You want to know why? Because your name is not featured here.

I rest my case.

02:19

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

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