this is it
Thursday, September 28, 2006
I've reach that point where I just can't take it anymore.
I am tired of having to smile. I am tired of having to laugh. I am tired of having to act like everything's fine. I am tired of having to act like I am happy all the time.
Because the fact it, I am not.
Because of the past, because of that stupid dark point in my life, things are the way they are today. And I am hating every single minute of it.
I have a past that I don't want to share. Because it hurts alot, even by the mere thought of it. And it is worse when people who were there to witness the life I was leading before still think that I am the same old me.
It hurts when every single "conversation" you have with them, they will
ungkit about it.
Let it go? Forget about whatever they said? It's easier said than done. Try going through this shit for 5 years and tell me if it is easy to let go.
*I just can't handle it anymore.*
