now i feel free again...
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Too many things has been happening lately.
Today was the first day of
Ramadhan. And I didn't go home last night. I spent the night at
Zul's friend's uncle's place. Coz the friend's uncle is not in
Singapore so we've got the whole house to ourselves.
I don't know why. But it seems like I dread coming home nowadays. I don't know why. And even when I am home the whole day, like today, I spent the whole day in my room. Like, I don't know. I just don't feel like mingling with my family members. Anymore. And there were times I even feel like moving out.
But I just know I can't.Mr. R called just now around noon. I picked it up because I couldn't remember his office number. I don't remember anymore. I couldn't even remember his voice. Yes. I couldn't. I just told him to stop calling me and I hung up the phone. He called again.
Twice. And I rejected his calls. Both times.
I just hope he understands.The past is back. Maybe they decided to make a comeback. One by one. And guess what, I just can't handle it anymore.
I could just break down and cry.I am still in a confused state. And nobody will be able to understand. Because to tell you the truth, I can't understand it myself.
I just hope things will workout soon.*My heart was always searching for a place to hide.*
