In a state of confusion..
Friday, August 18, 2006
I love doing what I am doing. I love my job. But at the same time, I just feel I need to have a change of environment.
I miss the times when I was still a volunteer. But if I were to find another job, there will be no confirmation that I will be able to spare my time volunteering.
I want to go
Maldives to work. But my parents and
Mr. R don't allow it. Well, my parents did eventually but they changed their mind. I was devastated for some time but when I come to think about it, I think I'd better not. If my
rezeki is supposed to be overseas, I am sure there'll be another better chance for me. So for now,
Maldives will have to wait.
I love him. Yes. But somehow, I just can't bring myself to trust him. I just can't bring myself to believe him when he said he is sincere in loving me. Could it be he is still with me just because he just wants to prove me wrong? But, I still love him.
So now, I just guess I'll just have to wait and see. What the hell is happening to my life now
seh.
A holiday with
Mr. R, Notti-Meanie-
Jonny-Jabroni & his girlfriend,
Ina, to
Bintan. Or is it
Batam? I can't remember seriously but they all are pretty excited. So why am I not?
