Is it just me...?
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
"
So how's life being a staff from a volunteer?"
A friend of mine with whom I was talking to on the phone last night asked me this question.
Soalan bonus.
To those who don't know, I was a volunteer at my current workplace before I became a staff March this year.
I don't know how to explain. Yes. The first few weeks were fine. I mean I adapted quite fine with my job. My relationship with my collegues is also fine.
But actually it started out when my friends, the volunteers, kept on saying, "
Thira dah lain la skarang..." to me.
Betul ke? I don't see myself changing at all since I became a staff here. But maybe in their eyes I've changed. In fact, I actually asked a few of them whether I've really changed. Then they said it was just a joke. Were they telling the truth? Frankly, I don't know.
I told them that I am still the same
Thira.
Thira as a volunteer and
Thira as a staff is still the same. I am me. But ever since then....
Jobs were delegated well, I know that. We gave them responsibility with their capability taken into consideration. But somehow, things didn't turn out well. Sometimes, some of them don't even talk to me the same way as how they talk to the other staff. Can see la the double standards. But seriously, I don't mind at all. I mean I don't mind them talking with me in their lingo and vice versa. But I still can't accept the fact that they shout at me, even in front of the students. Fine. Maybe I am being petty.
But it got to a point when they don't finish up their work, then I finish it up for them. Just so I could save their ass. Eventually, I will not be able to finish up my work in the office, so who's going to save my ass then? Since then, I guess word got around about me finishing up jobs for them and now more of them are coming to me and tell me to do this and do that. And
Thira being
Thira, just can't say no. No matter how much work I have to do, I still do this favor for them.
Maybe it's just part of my job scope. I don't know. Maybe since I stop volunteering and became a staff, now I have to be a volunteer for some of the volunteers.
*
Sigh...*
I guess I am better off volunteering.
ps: This entry is a general entry. To those who feels I am talking about you, then I am sorry. It's my blog and I just need an outlet to vent out my feelings. I don't name names, coz that wouldn't be too nice, would it? I'll delete this entry once I am feeling better.
