Pit Stop 101.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
I wish I have enough courage to go back to the old ways. I feel
macam buat baik dengan orang pun tak guna.
You know. The old ways. Bitchy to everybody.
Bebual takde lesen. Not nice. Never will stick to one guy at one time. Etc. Etc.
I wish. Maybe life would be better that way. You know. Like I was able to lead my life and let it run smoothly instead of having obstacles. But now when I've change, there's like
sooooooooooo many obstacles for me to go through. Maybe to those who doubted very much I was able to change, you'll be laughing now or maybe smirking because now I will go back to the old ways. Unfortunately for you, I won't.
There are reasons why I won't change myself. It's because I love myself. And I love my family. Especially my parents. They are already old. I want to make life easier for them. My family have been through enough shit for me before. They've cried enough for me. They've suffer enough.
And I
won't let history itself. For the sake of my family and those whom I hold dear to my heart.
And to
Wati. I really thank you sis. For being there for me. Despite what I did. I am sorry.
