Let me tell you a story...
Saturday, November 26, 2005
There once lived a girl, who was quite a havoc. She used to get drunk. She used to go clubbing. She used to chain smoke as much as 40 cigarettes per day.
One fine day, she decided to stop all this. Because she feels that she has to be matured and her life can't continue being like that. She decided to quit everything - smoking, drinking, clubbing. And she did eventually. And she is proud of her achievements. She just want to be a proper Muslim girl.
Unfortunately for this girl, there are some people around her who can't accept the fact that she is changing for the better. In fact, she lose quite a number of friends. There are her clubbing and drinking kakis who stopped contacting her just because she do not want to go clubbing or drinking with them anymore. "Kerek ah kau skarang..", that's what they told her.
At times, when she goes out, she wears tudung. Because she wants to wear tudung permanently but now, she wears it occassionally. And she got a close friend who happens to be a chinese. And this friend of hers always laughed at her when she's in tudung and by all means, this friend tries not to be near her when she's in tudung. The excuse was, "I not used to seeing you wearing tudung la..".
She's hurt. But she keeps it in her. At times she wants to cry. But she hold back her tears. She don't understand why there are some people around her who just can't accept it that she WANTS to wear tudung. It's her choice. But unfortunately, the people around her makes her think twice about it. So most of the time, when she goes out with her friends, she won't wear a tudung. Just because she does not want to be laughed at.
Last night, she talked to a friend on the phone. This friend of hers is a pious man. She was fine with it because she feels that she wants to be close to this friend of hers, hoping that he'll be able to lead her to the correct path. But something he said last night made her cry. "I don't like to be friends with those havoc girls but you are an exception because you were from OI". She told him that she does not want to be accepted as his friend just because they were from the same school even though he graduated before she entered the school. It hurts her alot when he said that. He tried to explain himself and tried to rephrase whatever he just said but still she was hurt. Don't get her wrong. She's not interested in the guy or anything, she just wants to be close with the guy because she feels he can help her, bring her to the right path.
She told him not to contact her anymore because it's just no use. She'll feel awkward talking to the guy after what he told her. She just won't be able to be herself talking to him.
Why are there nobody around her who is able to accept her change. Beside her family, only Max, Is and a couple of other friends are able to accept it but majority of her friends aren't able to accept it.
She's lost. She's confused. And she's thinking twice about changing herself.
