This is not a bloody poem. It's just my thoughts.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
The moment I left you,
That was the moment I started to miss you.
I turned around, hoping to see you behind.
But it was just a hope I guess,
A hope that would never come true.
The moment I left you,
That was the moment I had to control the tears.
But I was helpless as our memories came flooding in my mind.
I started to miss your laughter and your smile,
Because I don't know if I could see them again.
The moment I left you,
That was the moment I wanted to turn,
Run to you and hug you tight.
Because I do not know whether I could ever feel your embrace,
Whether it will happen again.
The moment I left you,
I just wish I could turn back the hands of time.
To understand you better, to make things right.
I asked you if you wish you could turn back the hands of time,
You said yes but there's nothing we could do.This is not a poem. I am sure you noticed that too. Poems are
here.
Ladies & gentlemen, boys & girls, people of all ages. It's official. It's over. Laugh your hearts out. Cry the tears of blood. Whatever you do, it's your choice. I guess the "
curse" by my ex turns out pretty well.
*
Thanks you stupid, moronic, idiotic a-hole ex of mine...*
Yeah, I should not be too affected by that
stupid "
curse" but I was greatly affected by what
Azmi had said.
If only... This is the only thing I can afford to say.
Will
Azmi and me get back together? I doubt so even though I hope so.
He tried to stop me from going. He did. But I chose to remain stubborn. I told him to let go. I took his hands off my chair. He did, and his hands felt
heavy and
cold. I miss his warm hands. I wanted to cry, I swear I did but I held it back. Looking like an idiot walking in
Tampines with red eys and tears running downmy cheeks. Oblivious to the surronding. I don't give a fuck. People were looking at me, maybe asking themselves why the hell was I crying, maybe laughing at me.
At that point of time, I really yearn for
Azmi by my side. I remembered I cried once and he held me close, he hugged me tight. I miss those moments. I want it back. But I guess it's too late.
People say that if you love him, let him go if he wants it, as long as he's happy. I did just that. But
Azmi sent 2 messages to me, "
Y must this happen to me?" and "
Do you think I am happy?". What have I done?
I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you, so
I should have held on tight
I never shoulda let you go
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid, I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you
Cause I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt
-We Belong Together(Mariah Carey)
Our favourite picture together.
I am going to miss those times. I really will. I miss you. I am sorry.
