her story

I got stabbed.
Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Ok. Not really. But that's how I felt. That's why I didn't go for my Accounts holiday lessons just now.

*So much for having one month holidays...*

I woke with this really bad tummy ache. Real bad. I thought I would be fine but it just got worst. Felt like as if there's some stabbing going on in my tummy. Trust me. I know how a stab would feel like.

Messaged Belinda at 0800hours telling her to tell Mrs. Wong that I'm going to be a bit late. Or so I thought. But the pain became unbearable. In the end, when Belinda messaged me again and asked me whether I was coming, I told her to tell Mrs. Wong that I won't be coming.

I really thought I was going to die. In fact, when Belinda called me in the morning, she too told me that I sounded like as if I am going to die.

Slept throughout the day. No. I didn't go to the doctor. You people should know by now that I do NOT like going to the doctors. But I did put lots and lots and lots of axe oil, even though I just simply HATE the smell of that thing.

Anyway, I managed to find that missing pink spectacles of mine under my bed. Don't ask me how it got there. Just in case you forget, this is how I look like with those pink spectacles of mine.

Btw, read this story. So touching one.

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty,
He said no.

She asked him if he would want to be with her forever,
And he said no.

She asked him if he liked her,
He said no.

She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry,
And once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough.

As she walked away,
Tears streaming down her face,
The boy grabbed her arm and said....

You're not pretty, you're beautiful.

I dont want to be with you forever
I NEED to be with you forever.

I don't like you,
I LOVE YOU

And I wouldnt cry if you walked away,
I'd die...

*Touching kan...*

21:32

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Boxing Cabaret.
Monday, May 30, 2005

My gurlings and I are planning to watch this.

Details are as follows:
17th & 18th June at 2000hours at the Esplanade Recital Studio
Ticket pricing: $30, $18(Students, NSF, Senior citizens concession)
Tickets from Esplanade Box Office and SISTIC's authorised agents
SISTIC hotline: 6348 5555
Group bookings of 20 or more: 6828 8389
A SISTIC booking fee applies for all tickets.

Please do take note that it is rated at NC-16 so if you are UNDER the age of 16, wait for my gurlings and me outside the Esplanade and we'll tell you how it was, ok? Is's 60 minutes with no intermisson.

Over and out. On this topic at least.

A different topic altogether.

Hatred. Angst. Pissed. Irritated. Fucked up.

Those are the words of the week. The worst part is that I don't even know if it's only for this week.

For the whole week, I just feel that I get angry, pissed, irritated, etc just by little things.

And I feel that I've been making people angry, pissed off and irritated by me.

They may not say it but I just have this feeling. I really have no idea. I've not been myself lately. Maybe because of the confusion I am going through. What's the confusion, well, I don't really know how to say it. I tried talking to Max about this confusion in the MSN the other day but he changed the topic. Oh well.

Fake smiles. Fake laughs. Fake happiness. That's just part of my ife. Just waiting for someone who is able to make me really happy so there's no more of those fake smiles, laughs and happiness. It's time to make it real.

*Help me...?*

17:03

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

My trademark.
Sunday, May 29, 2005

No. Am not trying to act cute. My sister told me that this face can actually be my "trademark" since I always do this face.

*Hahahaha...*

So is this going to be your trademark too since you've been copying my likes and dislikes this past few months. It's just getting on my nerves. Why don't you just get a life?

*Sheesh...*

Went to Geylang wet market with my parents just now. Yes. Yours truly went to a wet market. Me, the kind of person who'll most probably do her grocery shopping in hyper/super markets when she's married went to the wet market. I don't like.

Anyway, I puked while I was there because I saw this fish head with its guts dangling out.

I guess this is what you need to know about me:

I don't eat fish with bones. Debone the fish before feeding me.
The only types of fish that I eat are fishballs/cakes, fish fillet/nuggets, stingray, canned tuna/sardines, deboned fish.

15:50

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

This was what happened.

Met Belinda at Bishan MRT at 1640hours. Took the train down to Orchard. Taufiq messaged me and told me that he saw BOB at Al-Falah Mosque. I asked a very stupid question: "What was BOB doing there?". Obviously, BOB went to pray. What else could he be doing in the mosque?

*Sheesh...*

Amudah and Dayana was late. They were 44minutes late! So Belinda and myself just went to Sakura to get the seats because apparently, it was packed in Sakura. We were served by this girl whose face really got attitude. Apa-apa lah. Aku pun kadang-kadang macam gitu dulu bila serve customer kat Swensen's & Swensen's & RH Fashion. Hahahaha....

I "forced" them to agree to order a dish with the "flower-flower" thing as the garnishing. And Amudah still owe me longan drink.

Told them I wanted to take a cab down to Esplanade. But they insist on taking the train instead. Oh well.

Reached City Link Mall and we got stuck in a human jam. There was some Channel 8 variety show recording or something because I saw Sharon Au in that "angel" outfit. It was quite impossible to move but somehow we managed to get out of the human jam. While we were stuck in the human jam, there's this girl who shouted, "Pukimak lah cepat sikit lah bodoh!". I was like, "Woah...!"

Reached Esplanade. The show was nice. Really. It's interesting that you are able to understand the show without having the actors and actresses saying anything.

Ristorante Immortale

China Black was cancelled. Dayana was unable to join us because she felt sick. Instead, we went to Clarke Quay. Had our light supper at Hooters. Having this private party and the whole Hooters was packed with ang mohs. Belinda said something like all the ang mohs look the same, it's kind of difficult to differentiate them. Funny lah this girl.

There were quite a couple of cute ang mohs: at my 3 o'clock, at my 1 o'clock, at my 11 o'clock, at my 9 o'clock. I don't know their names actually so that's how I recognise them.

*Hahahaha...*

Hafiizh joined us. Then we went off. Took a cab home with Amudah and Hafiizh. Dropped Amudah off at Serangoon Station and Hafiizh sent me home. Amudah said I looked as if I was drunk because while we were waiting for a cab, I was hugging the pillar and I the cab I slept as I was having a headache. Fret not. I wasn't drunk. In fact I already quit drinking alcohol. I only had pineapple juice when we were in Hooters.

Didn't get to take pictures because Dayana forgot to bring her digital camera and yours truly lost her digital camera, remember? Plus, whereever we went, the lighting wasn't good so no point taking picture with my camera phone.

And now I am home, in front of my computer, updating my blog.

Speak your mind. KEEP IT REAL.
BOY: I saw her today
GIRL: I saw him today

BOY: It seems like its been forever
GIRL: I wonder if he still cares

BOY: She looks better than before
GIRL: I couldn't stop staring at him

BOY: I asked her how things were going
GIRL: I asked about his new girlfriend

BOY: I'd choose her over any girl im with
GIRL: He's probablly really happy right now

BOY: I couldnt look at her without starting to cry
GIRL: He couldnt even look at me

BOY: I told her I miss her
GIRL: He doesnt mean it

BOY: I meant it
GIRL: He didnt mean it

BOY: I love her
GIRL: He loves his new girlfriend

BOY: I held her for the last time
GIRL: He gave me a friendly hug

BOY: Then I went home and cried
GIRL: Then I went home and cried

BOY: I lost her
GIRL: I still love him

At this VERY minute...
someone is thinking of you
someone cares about you.
someone misses you
someone wants to hold your hand.
someone wants you to be happy.
someone wants to hug you.
someone will do anything for you.
someone needs to know your love is unconditional.
someone wants to tell you how much they care.
someone wants to stay up watching movies with you.
someone wants to hold you in their arms.
someone wants to see you.
someone wants to be your lover.
someone loves you for who you are.
someone loves the way you make them feel.
someone wants to be with you.
someone wants you to know they are there for you.
someone is glad that you're their friend.
someone is wishing you would notice them.
someone wants to get to know you better.
someone loves you.

01:58

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

I got to know.
Saturday, May 28, 2005

That I have a friend who reads my blog every day. He said that I can actually compile my entries and make it into a book of short stories.

*Hahahaha...*

And that friend is..... DIL.....!!!

*Hahahaha...*

Ok. I going out for lunch with my parents now at Hajjah Maimunah. Today, I am the only child because my younger sister went for the tree-top trail with my elder sister. I remembered my sister asked why I didn't want to go with them. This was what my mom said, "What if she faints halfway due to the heat? What if she gets those rashes again? What if she goes out of breathe?"

Just now, my parents asked me whether I am going out tomorrow. When I said no, they asked why.

Kelakar lah dorang. When I stay home, they'll ask why I am not going out. And when I do go out, thay'll ask why I never stay home.

*Hmmm...*

Update later again tonight about my Arts Fest thingie, aite?

12:20

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Annual Sports Day at Toa Payoh Stadium.
Friday, May 27, 2005

Nooooooo.....

Am not going to update you about what happened because....

I didn't go.

Instead, I went to Queensway Shopping Centre, IKEA and Tampines with Belinda and Max.

I had to be the "middle woman" and ask what's that guy's name and number. Turns out his name is Anthony and his number is 9....... Crazy ah. Happy happy only put other people's handphone number.

Took this outside Queensway Shopping Centre.

Looks like they are kicking/stepping my head, right? LOL!!!

Then off we went to IKEA. Had fun because we were doing this. The three of us played pretend. We became collegues in offices, a family, etc at almost all of the display in IKEA. At one point of time Belinda became the "spirit" because she was too tired.

*Hahahahaha...*

By the time we were done, we got hungry. So off we went to Burger King. And these are the pics taken there.

By the time we were done, Belinda and Max wanted to go to Tampines because they wanted to see Bob.

*Errrr...*

So walk around. Went to Toys R Us at Tampines Mall. Bought a SpongeBOB Squarepants tumbler. It was the last piece so I told the manager that I want it and so we change the cover to another type of SpongeBOB Squarepants tumbler. Told the manager that the price has a difference of $1 and so he actually changed the price tag. And guess what. I got it at $0.05 CHEAPER! But this one is without Patrick. The other one got Patrick and SpongBOB Squarepants. But never mind.

That's my hand by the way

After that, we went our separate ways. Max accompanied me on 22. Then only did I realise Max and myself didn't take a single picture together today. So here goes.

Had this conversation with Max on the bus. I think the only way for me to forget HIM is to get to know a guy with whom HE can't be compared with. In other words, I need to get a guy who is better than HIM.

Well, I guess all I can do now is to wait patiently for the existence of that guy.

*Sheesh...*

In the meantime, I will just have to make do with the situation.

Looking forward for tomorrow. Will be going to Esplanade to watch Ristorante Immortale with the whole of Bartley Campus Pre-U 3. Will be all dressed up and looking pretty. Fret not. I'll make sure we'll take picture. After that, maybe Belinda, Amu, Dayana, Venus and myself will be heading down to Chinablack. If the rest can't make it, then maybe it'll be only Belinda and me, I guess.

Wanna join us?

22:28

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

It all started due to the rainy day.
Thursday, May 26, 2005

It was raining. I waited for a cab. I waited and waited. For 15 bloody minutes! An available cab was seen at last at 0715hours. I flagged it down. It stopped. I boarded the cab.

Me: Bartley Road, Millennia Institute.

Cab driver: (nods his head)

It begins. He drove slowly. At 20km/hr. I thought that it's ok because we were approaching the traffic light. Understandable. But when I look again at the traffic light, it was green.

*Wtf...*

This was the beginning.

For the whole of the journey(ie. from Serangoon Ave 2 to Bartley Rd), he kept at constant speed. I don't mind if it's constant speed but can you imagine being in the cab whereby the cab driver was driving constantly at the fucking speed of 20km/hr!!!

Imagine this. A usual 10 minutes maximum taxi ride from Serangoon Ave 2 to Bartley Rd took more than 15 bloody minutes? I boarded the bloody cab at 0720hours and I only reached school AFTER 0735hours!

*Wtf...*

I mean I would complain. But I couldn't be bothered. Why? Because by half of this year, I've made a total of 5 complains.

*Sheesh...*

I do have to admit that majority of the cab drivers out there are nice people - and this includes my Dad. But there is this minority which makes them look bad overall.

I take a cab at least once a day. I take the cab almost every other day to school. When I am going home and the bus is freaking late, I'll take a cab home. When I am out, I'll take a cab to get to the location and to get home most of the time. How I wish that this minority of cab drivers would improve themselves. This is not the kind of image that we would want to leave, especially to tourists.

A different topic altogether......

I got back 2 of my test papers - Accounts(12/25) and Economics(13/25). I pass both the papers. Not only AO pass but in fact A level pass. Heh. Not bad aye. It's not really that good but it motivates me more to study harder to get better marks.

:)

Had General Paper exam just now. Damn. It was difficult. Actually, the passage was easy only the questions can make you cry.

This one. Confirm 100% gurantee plus chop - I'll fail.

22:23

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

It felt like IRC all over again.

Usually, it was only Max and myself, talking about shit stuff - love, friends, HIM, on MSN.

But tonight, it was different. It felt like IRC again. Though I have to admit not everybody was there. Max and myself were joined by Shikin, Kkid, Is. It felt weird. It felt funny. But at the same time, it was nice. It's been a long time since we chatted together in the same "room".

Got me thinking. These are the people who had been my friends since I was hooked on the world of IRC. I "retired" from IRC in late 2001 but surprisingly, I am still in contact with them. We still go out as a group once in a while. Spending time together, wasting money, reminiscing...

These are the group of people that my Mom didn't like me mixing around with. In the end, she "accepted" them after 7 years.

I love them.

00:07

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Lookie...!
Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Look what Dil did to my picture.

I look like I had a very good cry and trying real hard to smile for this picture.

You would never have guessed after communicating with each other via e-mails over the years, Dil and myself exchange numbers for the first time just now.

*Lol...*

23:19

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Nothing compares to HIM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Had a talk with my bro, Max. He's saying that HE may be my true love. That is why I can't seem to forget HIM.

If HE really is my true love, wouldn't we'd still be together now?

Yes. I am foolish. Hints HE dropped: wanting the kiss good night, wanting to hold my hands, wanting to hug me when I am feeling cold; was all unseen by me. Was I blind? Was I a fool?

I may date alot of other guys after HIM but I'll end up comparing them to HIM.

Because nobody can compare to HIM.

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

Facts of LIFE
1. At least five people in this world love you so much they would die for you.(Wonder who.)

2. At least fifteen people in this world love you in some way. (Those people, own up now!)

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is that they want to be just like you. (I agree. It's jealousy you see.)

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you. (Really?!)

5. Every night someone thinks about you before they go to sleep. (Wish it's HIM.)

6. You mean the world to someone. (Hope it's HIM.)

7. Without you, someone may not be living. (Thanks to the blood donated before?)

8. You are special and unique, in your own way. (Yup!)

9. Someone whom you don't know even exists, loves you. (This is scary.)

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it. (Hahahaha.. Totally.)

11. When you think the world has turned it's back on you, take a look: You most likely turned your back on the world. (Hmmm...)

12. When you think you have no chance at getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, you probably sooner or later will get it. (I agree. Totally.)

13. Always remember compliments you received; forget about the rude remarks. (Hahaha.. I do that ALL the time.)

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know. (I can only wish.)

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. (I ALWAYS do this.)

19:43

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Backies.
Monday, May 23, 2005

21.05.2005
Went to Jurong Point with Belinda. The plan was to buy my Emily the Strange sling bag then go off to Toa Payoh. Well, I did buy the bag.

Also, I bought a pair of shoes. Thanks to Belinda.

"You sure you don't want to buy? 2nd pair 30% off leh..."

Tempting. In the end I did buy. So now Belinda and me have matching shoes.

22.05.2005
Went for my free makeover at Isetan Scotts. Supposedly to meet Ahmad but he overslept.

So how was the makeover? Basically, I love what they did to my eyes but other than that, it's how I usually make myself up when I go out. So nothing special. Funny though because after she applied the mascara, I opened my eys as per normal. Then, there was aline a green dots because she applied green mascara for me. So for the whole time, I just had to look down because apparently, she said that my eye lashes are too long.

I simply LURVE what they did to my eyes. But can't see the effect here.

Called Max and told him that I wanna meet up with him. So off I went over to Causeway Point and met up with my bro. Did a bit of shopping here and there. Ate at MacDonald's. Sat at the staircase and talked about HIM. HIM whose name we shall not speak of.

*Sigh...*

Had fun. As both of us are big time narcisst, what else can we do but to take pics with our Samsung D500C. Actually it was more of Max's phone because my handphone's battery went flat. So here you go.

The brother and sister with THE answers. Well. Kinda.

These are the pictures of me and only me!

Check out my fingers. Long kan.

Apparently, Max agreed with me when I said that this pic don't look like me. So here's my "twin".

I think this picture has the "angelic" effect.

Went home. Feeling tired. So tired. But still, it did not stop me from taking my own picture looking tired. Kinda.

ps: Thanks for exchanging the h p batt with me Max! SmuackS!

23.05.2005
Mom and Dad are back in Singapore. God! I miss them!

Did baked rice just now over at Bro's place. Yummy. Here are the pictures!

Before

After

Yummylicious. Maybe can consider selling baked rice beside brownies.

*Hmmm...*

So here I am back in my own home. Back in front of my own computer. Tonight, I'll sleep in the comfort of my own bed.

*YAY...!*

20:32

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Parents went Malaysia.
Friday, May 20, 2005

So here I am, blogging at my brother's place in Toa Payoh. Obviously, the internet connection is much faster than it is at home.

*Never mind...*

Anyhoooooo...

Ahmad was supposed to pick me up from school to bring me all the way to Jurong Point to buy that Emily the Strange bag I've been eyeing. But he can't make it because he had to cover for his friend who is on MC.

*Sheesh...*

Rino messaged me just now asking about the money he asked for loan. I had to tell him no because Belinda apparently is not encouraging me to lend money to anybody anymore. Don't get the wrong idea. It's not as if she's controlling my money. She's just trying to "save" me from lending people money and not getting it back. He intentions are good. Don't worry. Amu and Dayana also said the same thing about lending people money. Because you see, the problem with me is that, I'll lend people money easily and the problem lies with me asking for the money back. I just do not know exactly how to do it. In fact, whenever I lend people stuff, I just do not know exactly how to ask for it back.

*Sigh...*

Hasril cancelled our outing this Sunday. I just felt like cursing and swearing. Really. To me, cancelling it this time is kind of last minute. And I DO NOT like last minute stuff. And the best part, he only tell me that he thinks he can't make it when I told him that I doubt he'll be able to make it due to his hectic work schedule. And he said that he feels it too and he was actually looking forward to it. As if.

*Wtf...*

Thanks to Max who readily confirm that he'll be able to make it. Thanks to Hafiizh who said that he'll confirm with me again. Thanks to Suhairi who said that he'll confirm with me on Sunday itself.

No thanks to Hasril with the last minute cancellation.

So I will be going for my makeover this Sunday at Isetan Scotts. Looking forward to it.

Mom and Dad went off to Malaysia already. For the whole week end. Wanted to go along but I can't because Amni's having her religious class exams.

I'll miss you.

To Hasril: I AM pissed off.

19:27

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Tomorrow can be too late.
Thursday, May 19, 2005

(1)
If you're mad with someone, and nobody's there to fix the situation,
You fix it,
Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend,
And if you don't,
Tomorrow can be too late...

(2)
If you're in love with somebody, but that person doesn't know.
Tell him.
Maybe today, that person is also in love with you.
And if you don't say it,
Tomorrow can be too late...

(3)
If you really want to kiss somebody,
Kiss him,
Maybe that person wants a kiss from you too,
And if you don't kiss him today,
Tomorrow can be too late...

(4)
If you still love a person that you think has forgotten about you,
Tell him,
Maybe that person have always loved you,
And if you don't tell him today,
Tomorrow can be too late...

(5)
If you need a hug of a friend,
Ask him for it,
Maybe they need it more than you do,
And if you don't ask for it today,
Tomorrow can be too late...

(6)
If you really have friends who you appreciate,
Tell them,
Maybe they appreciate you as well,
That if you don't and they leave or go far away today,
Tomorrow can be too late...

This is a message to all of my friends out there. Do what you want to do today because you'll never know what's going to happen tomorrow.

Thanks Dee for this message. It really means a lot to me, especially (2), (3) and (4).

SmuackS. I LOVE you people LOTS!

11:59

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

I was a walking zombie.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005

Felt so dead today in school. Don't know why.

Woke up at 9am yesterday. Messaged Belinda then continued sleeping. That was the reason why I was not in school yesterday. Have been oversleeping for the past few weeks because I've been staying up late every night to study. That's the only time I think I can actually concentrate on studying. How?

Was approached about my attendance in school. Can't help it lah. But by the end of the day, they can't stop me from taking my A levels end of the year right? I admit I've been absent without a valid reason majority of the time but what to do? It's not as if I don't study while I took "time off" from school. guess I just need to buck up in order to get into the teachers' good books.

*Oh damn...*

I hate this new Converse shoes of mine. So bloody slippery seh. I nearly slipped and fell twice wearing these shoes. But I still like it because it's nice. But it's also giving me blisters. Never mind. It's nice.

Took my Economics essay test just now. It was belated because I was absent from school on the 11th of May. I studied wrongly lah! I mean I did revise on the topic Balance of Payments but I didn't touch anything on the current accounts. Did my test in the library 2nd floor. Can't do it at the 1st floor because it was simply too noisy. It was tempting to bring in my notes and cheat I tell you but I didn't. At least my conscience is clear. Though a few of my friends were like asking me why didn't I just cheat. Just can't lah.

Though I felt kind of guilty when I handed in the paper to Mr. Lai. He was asking me why I handed in only a single sheet of paper (the front was the whole of part (a) which was 10 marks and the back was the whole of part (b) which was 15 marks). Can see his disappointment. Felt so guilty. Sorry Mr. Lai.

To that particular anonymous: I hope that you would just stop flooding my chatterbox with your endless rubbish. Whose boyfriend did I steal? Why am I slut? Tell me where I belong? If you could just answer this question, then maybe I'll give you permission to flood my chatterbox with your endless babblings. Get a life ok? Or would you want me to give you one?

To my friends who supported me through my chatterbox: Thank you so much guys. Especially Max who had "fun" arguing with the anonymous on my chatterbox. Love you people!

Took this quiz just now when I was ordering from Pizza Hut just now.

You are a Seafood Supreme Pizza!
Tastefully topped with the best ingredients, you dress to impress and love spending on the best luxuries to pamper yourself. You believe in enjoying life to the max, afterall we only live once! Your excellent fashion sense and self-indulgent spending habits are what makes you stand out from the crowd, making many around you envious of your comfortable lifestyle. This pizza is a symbol of status!

Which type of Supreme Pizza are you?
Brought to you by Pizza Hut

17:06

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Credit side overflowing.
Monday, May 16, 2005

No. Am not talking about accounts. Though I am proud to say that I got an AO pass for that difficult paper. Not bad. I was thinking I would fail but when Mrs. A. Wong said, "Anith has shown improvement", I was happy. Happy. Happy. Happy.

But, I do have "debts" that needs to be settled. For example, I still owe Mrs. Vetri 3 bloody essays. THREE general paper essays. Not composition or Paper 2. Boy. It's ben a VERY long time since I was required to write composition. Now it's all essays.

And we are free in choosing our own topics. That may sound easy but it's actually not. Because it simply means that you'll have extra stuff to do(ie. choosing own topic).

I think I'll have to complete at least 2 essays by this week which I hope I will be able to do.

*Help me God...*

To the one who stole my pink umbrella from my classroom, may you die a horrible death for stealing my pink umbrella. Your whole body will turn hot pink when you die. Thank to you who stole my pink umbrella, now I am stuck with my blue umbrella.

*Sheesh...*

My life maybe boring to some. Nothing exciting may happen in my life to some people but I do believe that a blog is a place where somebody is free to announce whatever crap happens in their life.

So, if you're not happy with MY entries in MY blog, you're most welcome to leave.

Don't know how?

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23:19

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Tentang Dia.
Sunday, May 15, 2005

Planned to watch Tentang Dia with Hasril but I can't seem to find out when it'll be showing. So had to cancel the plan.

Does anybody know when it'll be showing? Please do tell me.

"Harapan datang saat dia kehilangan"

Read about the dog of the late ex-president Wee. Poor dog. He has no appetite to eat ever since the death of the late.

I want to go to the zoo. Been a long time since I last been there.

Hasril! Can we go there one day puh-leese?

I'll be going for the makeover next Sunday which is Vesak Day. Obviously, after that, I'll be going out. I've been going out almost every other week end.

*Sigh...*

Got to know last night that a friend of mine, Hafiizh, is now happily attached.

Parah seh! Bukan nak bilang orang good news!

I realise that people around me are all getting attached, except ME.

I may force myself to hate you but I still am missing you. Can't you just leave me alone?

Current song playing inmy head. thanks to that advertisement on Malaysian channels. Yes, I do watch Malaysian channel more than Singapore channel because they carry more good shows. :)

Here goes.. Indigo - Istimewa

Tiada puisi atau lagu
Tiada potret tiada ragu
Yang dapat ku ilham seindahmu
Nyata kau satu dalam berjuta
Wahai jelita kau istimewa

Walau ku kembara sedunia
Walau ketemu ramai wanita
Nyata kau tiada tandingannya
Seikhlas hati aku menyinta
Kau istimewa, teristimewa

Daku berikrar
Wahai maharaniku
Bina mahligai syahdu
Hanya engkau dan aku di situ

Tiada mimpi atau fantasi
Tiada rasa lebih berseri
Semekar murni hatimu sayang
Siang dan malam, aku terbayang
Kau istimewa, buat ku tenang

Daku berikrar
Wahai maharaniku
Bina mahligai syahdu
Hanya engkau dan aku di situ

Ingin ku bawa kau ke awana
Ingin memadu kasih asmara
Sepanjang hayatku curah cinta
Sebenar-benar ucapan kata
Kau istimewa oh! Percayalah
Ku perlu cinta dari wanitaku nan istimewa
Beriku cintamu nan istimewa....

16:04

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Flashback.
Saturday, May 14, 2005

12.05.05
I just got to know that I am able to take mosaic shots using my cellie. Thanks to Max for teaching me. Thanks bro!

*This is what happen when you don't read manuals...*

So check this out.

I am a narcisst. Got a problem with that?

The cutest sisters ever!

They are the reason to why I look forward to going home everyday. Hahahaha!

13.05.05
It's Friday the 13th. Had Economics case study test just now about AIDS. Something like how will AIDS affect the world economy or something like that. I think. As usual, I wrote total crap.

Got caught for the length of my skirt. Can't believe it. It's not that my skirt is short. It's just that I am short that's why my skirt looks short. Geddit?

I admit I've been absent from school a number of times without valid reason. Was approached because of it. Heart pain. Why all of a sudden I no longer get caught for my number of earrings or my hair colour?

*Sheesh...*

Was approached by Mrs A. Wong during break just now while sitting with Belinda, Amudah and Venus. Apparently, teachers have been talking about our attitude. And apparently, the only mistake we made was seen as a repetition by the teachers. All because...

WE ARE EX-COUNCILLORS.

On a lighter note.

I won an Anna Sui makeover.

Went out with Belinda, Dayana and Amni in the evening. Went shopping. $150 was spent. Look at it this way: I had to pay for Amni's stuff too. Bought a pair of jeans for $39 at Dorothy Perkins. Good bargain. Wanted to buy a top but it was difficult with Amni around. She never seem to agree with whatever top I chose.

Bought a bag too. Again.

Dayana had to leave earlier. So, the rest of us sat for a while at Starbucks before making our move.

The "Lesbian" partners. Don't mess with us.

*Thought I could go home and rest...*

But Amni and me had to make our way to Suntec City Carrefour only when we reached Potong Pasir NEL Station. Why? Because Mom, Dad, Abang, Kak Ayu and Asy were there and Amni wants to be there too.

Reached home near to midnight. Dead tired.

14.05.05
Institute Day.

Wonder why they just had to do it at Nanyang Auditorium in NTU. Had to report there at 0945hours but guess what time I had to leave home. 0700hours.

Initially, the plan was to take the bus from Serangoon all the way to Jurong East then transfer to the MRT to Boon Lay.

*Excuse me. Am not an MRT person...*

Had to cancel my plan thanks to the pervert on the bus. Long story. Wanna know ask me personally k.

What happened during I-Day. Slept during the speeches (I apologise. I was already sleepy and your speeches just made me more sleepy). Cheered loudly whenever there's something to do with Bartley Campus. Went off. What did I learn. Making the trip down to NTU did not make me want to further my studies there. I will still further my studies in UM. 'Nuff said.

Went to Boon Lay with Belinda and Amudah. Belinda went to Sentosa with her boyfriend. Amudah went to Queensway Shopping Centre. I took the train down to Clementi to meet "Clementi". FYI: "Clementi" is my ex. Took 106 down to town to watch a movie.

Btw, House of Wax is a MUST watch. Paris Hilton died a horrible death in the movie. Go watch to find out, ok?

Btw, I think he's hot.

Bought a new pair of shoes. Check out my new school shoes on Monday. Buy 4-D. I bought Converse shoes.

And me, being "smart", bought food for all of my family members except for myself. I forgot about my own food. Smart right?

I am starting to miss my secondary school friends: Secondary 5/1(2001). Been a VERY long time since I last saw them. Guess it's my fault because whenever there's a gathering, I'll be busy.

I miss you people. Where are you?

21:56

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Tell me now. Tell me true.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005

I was labelled. Not the first time but the third time. Not by one person but by 3 people. Sad.

I was labelled as a flirt.

*Wtf...*

How come? I don't know.

Labelled as a flirt, when I know I am not one.

Sad. Real sad.

I don't know what to say.

If I am really a flirt, it's all YOUR fault. You made me be like this. I can't seem to fall in love with another because you're still in my heart. I hate YOU!

23:40

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

There's a BOB in MI-B.
Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Let us all welcome the "new" student in our school - BOB...!!!

*Applause...*

Mrs. Wong thought POK is BOB. So we were wondering why a BOB is in charge of the school blazers. Then we figure out that she was referring to POK.

So now there's a BOB in our school.

Anyway...

I think Nan and myself look great in this picture.

'Nuff said.

Anyway, Mom's phone was collected today. She bought a Nokia 7270. Actually I bought for her lah. Well, kinda. Used my $250 Singtel voucher and she needed to top up another $58 only.

Think Mom's real lucky this Mothers' Day. All because of yours truly. Bought for her Scholl sandals, a new handphone strap and a Nokia 7270.

Explains why I am flat broke now. Considering that Sunday was Mothers' Day and Monday was my baby sister's birthday.

*Sigh...*

Why do I always lie to myself...? When will I stop lying to myself in order to make myself feel good...? Why can't you just leave my mind, leave my heart...?

Every time I think of you
I get a shot right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem with mind, but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind

There's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes and it's what nobody knows
And every day my confusion grows

CHORUS:
Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I feel like I never should
Whenever I get this way, I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday

I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself that if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

(Repeat chorus x2)

-Bizarre Love Triangle(Frente)

I am missing you. I really wish I could turn back the hands of time.

23:14

...i can't wait a moment more...
...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Happy 9th Birthday Amni!
Monday, May 09, 2005

My baby sister turned 9 today!

Bought for her a bag and a birthday cake.

Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to you!
Happy birthday to Amni!!!
Happy birthday to you!!!!!!!!!!

I love you lots!

Smuacks!

20:23

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...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

Dinner @ Meritus Mandarin Hotel.
Sunday, May 08, 2005

The occasion

Lembaga Kenangan Maulud(LBKM) is celebrating their 40th anniversary. Each seat costs S$80. 10-course dinner. Not bad. Guest of honor was PM Lee Hsien Loong. Not bad.

Yours truly

Amni & yours truly

This is what will happen if you give a boring speech

Mommy & yours truly

Daddy & yours truly

Abang & yours truly

Kak Ayu & yours truly

The cousins

That was basically it. More of my pics will be up on my online album which is now currently under construction. Be assured that I'll inform you people when it's ready for viewing.

Some star sightings. Too bad can't take a picture with PM Lee Hsien Loong.

Khairudin Sharom, Amni & yours truly

Khairudin Sharom, Rita Zahara, Amni & yours truly

It's late now. And I am tired.
*Ku nak tido....*

Zzzzzzzzzz.......

00:20

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...tell me quando quando quando...

ThiraMisU Y PhudzLee

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